Left Brain, Right Brain

In honor of the Sagittarius-Gemini moons, I’m doing a miniseries focused on topics of the mind and our beliefs. This week, I meditate on how neurodivergence can show up in the astrological chart using my natal chart as an example. Next week, I'll review the topic of Psyops featuring a Satanist and an Advisory Council Member of Turning Point, USA.

Mercury gets the most attention when describing our basic intelligence and communication skills. But the Moon is our initial receiver of information, our daily collector of impressions, some define it as our emotional processor. There is no language to the Moon - that is where Mercury comes in. It interprets and communicates what our Moon collects. 

My natal Mercury is moving backward away from my Sun in Aquarius, while my Moon in Pisces is slowly moving forward in the other direction. Even though my Moon is only 6 degrees away from my Sun, it couldn’t be further away, in apogee. But with my Sun under the horizon, my Moon is the one in charge. 

 The square my Moon makes to my South Node in Gemini and my North Node in Sagittarius mimics the Moon’s placement at the midpoint between the node’s rulers: Mercury in Aquarius and Jupiter in Pisces. 

My moon is like a sponge, it soaks up everything in my immediate environment, but how I translate what I collect can easily get lodged between my left brain, represented by Mercury, and right brain, represented by Jupiter. My moon conjunct the fixed star Fomalhaut, combined with Neptune conjunct my North Node, means whatever information I’ve collected can easily dissolve in a foggy daydream. 

With the Moon ruling Saturn, my ability to store information is porous. I can't structure information in real time and I often can’t see where I’m going until I get there. My mind is like a chaotic soup, information often disordered and not easily categorized. I can be dyslexic with numbers and I cannot do the simplest math equations in my head. 

With Uranus in Scorpio in trine with my Moon in Pisces, I’m what they call an HSP, or a highly sensitive person. My mind can easily short circuit with too much sensory information. Certain strong smells or loud noises can scramble my brain and turn me into a live wire. 

When Mercury stationed retrograde before my birth, the Moon was on the other side in Virgo, opposing Jupiter in Pisces. This Moon - Jupiter opposition, is a way to understand how I’ve learned to adapt. Because my mind works the way it does, I naturally started to figure out better ways to organize my thoughts. 

I need to see the information externally to be able to organize it. Writing helped. I used to take copious notes in school, but it could only take me so far when I was younger. You see, I also have issues with fine motor skills so I have a hard time organizing and deciphering what I write out by hand. I distinctly remember the torture I received from a 4th grade penmanship teacher who apparently thought penmanship skills was a measure of success or failure as a person. 

With my Mercury in Aquarius and Aquarius ruling technology, it’s no surprise the computer helped me function in the business world. I could finally structure things like numbers via spreadsheets, and I could more easily organize my thoughts in a readable typed format in front of me. But because of a deep seated fear that I wouldn’t be able to access information spontaneously, I became an obsessive tracker of data. I cling to my typed notes and have a hard time speaking spontaneously on most any topic outside of my own intimate experience. 

Virgo is also ruled by Mercury, the ruler of my South Node, my safety blanket. So I’ve recently started to ask myself,  is where I find relief also a safety blanket?  Is there a point where I will start trusting myself enough to relax, to let go, and allow my intuition to take over?

I circle back to my Moon square... acceptance is the first step to any breakthrough. I try to accept the variability of my process.  I follow my nose, waiting for the right invitation to grow, trusting that if I do the work and I’m present I can learn from each and every experience, no matter what comes out. 

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